Awhile back (yes a few years) I met with a group of guys weekly for prayer and accountability. we met in a local church, played some basketball in the gym, laughed, talked about life, shared dreams, prayed together and helped one another on various home and vehicle projects. Life was good for most of us. We were concerned for one of our younger guys (lets call him Fred).
Fred fit in well but gave off signals once in awhile that he wanted more than life was giving him. He seemed almost jealous of, well, most things the rest of us had. I wish we had really seen the depths of his dissatisfaction. Fred needed to mature, be a husband and be a dad.
One Sunday after church, Fred and his young family was spending the afternoon at one of his wealthy friends place and commented how someday he would own the same size monster fishing boat as soon as he could save up the money. His friend smiled and told him it was nothing but trouble to him and rather than letting it sit in the barn he told Fred if he wanted it it was his. So Fred got his dream boat, after going to the bank to borrow big money to buy a vehicle that could pull the boat. Was Fred now happy?
I still think back to when we begin to walk out of the church, Fred would ask me to sit down to the piano and “Play that song ,uh, SO MUCH, I need to hear it” he would say. So I would play and sing a song I had written, it seemed, for him. He would cry, wipe his eyes a few times, sniffle, mumble sorry guys and walk out. YA, it was a big clue.
- I remember a time, when I was so close to you
We’d sit and talk for hours upon end
And I remember thinking how you must love me
- I remember all the things we did together
I never went anywhere without you
And I remember thinking how I loved you
- I remember when my friends got tired of listening to me
Cause all I ever talked about was you.
And I remember telling you, I love you
Chorus) But here I am, I’ve drifted away
I’m so sorry I must say, I’ve been living without you.
Here I am, I left long ago, and I’m out on my own
Yet I know that you love me,
- Just the other day, I heard a little knock on my door
I said, go away I want to be alone.
I thought I heard a little voice whisper “I Love You
Bridge: I listen to the echos in the chambers of my heart
Oh the emptiness that lives in my soul
I see the hollow eyes watching me from the mirror
These eyes need love again…they need you again
End: Oh- I know that you love me
Yes I know that you love me
Words and music by Gary Fultz (1997)
Down the road of time, Fred walked out on his family and his God who still loves him
Some day I will record this song, just in case there is another Fred out there. Maybe you need to know that God wants an intimate relationship with you. He loves you
Add on:I just recorded it. Click here… https://youtu.be/-5XgJcrKdmA
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