Mind Muddles

I’ve been sick. too sick to think with any speed or accuracy I guess. Long pauses are my friend. Lot’s of things like questions, coughing spells and too many vitamins give me the mind muddles. I have a sneaky suspicion that those little viruses that cause me so many problems are a lot like what the preachers describe as the character of sin in one’s life. “Sin will take you further than you want to go and keep you longer than you want to stay.” I suspect another point would be that sin creates a “mind muddle” on the spiritual end of things. What do I know? I have a muddled mind.

The ironic part of being sick, with high fevers for awhile, is there is so much time to think. Let the beauty of that statement sink in (believe me, I’ve tried). Right now, deep thinking works about as well as shoving off from shore in a canoe with no paddle. I have experiences there and it’s a good idea to bring your fishing rod for something to do until you drift to the end of the lake. Oh, and bring your cell phone to let the family know you might be late for supper and possibly breakfast.

This downy woodpecker has a muddled mind. See his beak? He keeps beating out tunes on my grill cover

Now my fevers are gone and recovering is real slow. I have actually gained some insight about myself, God and life in general. I felt good one day, rushed outside, worked in the garden and went on a photo-shoot to the lake. That cost me about two weeks of extended recovery time. More thermometer in mouth and parking under blankets on the recliner in front of the picture window time. Again. And, again. I digress. I think much of my time looking out the window was in worship on the lowest level one can get. Seriously; on my level of muddled mind, all I could do was look out the window and see the trees, birds, sky, new buds and leaves and say “wow”. Nature is sure beautiful. Look…Oh look! that squirrel is climbing a tree! “They do that sometimes” said my wife.

My prayer has been “thank you Lord for making such beauty, and thank you for even a muddled minded sickly guy being able to enjoy it.”

I’m getting better every day. I can get out for short periods of time, rest awhile and go again. I can now take off the 30 foot retractable dog leash off my ankle without getting dizzy bending over. This means I am more responsible now for how far I go beyond the deck. If you do not hear from me in awhile, again, I am probably in the canoe.

I do have a few pictures to share from a few of my short outings…enjoy and stay healthy!

Click on any picture to enlarge and for slide show.

Gary

48 thoughts on “Mind Muddles

  1. Sorry to hear that you have been unwell Gary. Glad that you are beginning to feel a little better. Your weather seems to be improving too by the look of the photographs.

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  2. Beautiful photos and great description of the situation of the muddled mind. Prayers as you gather back your strength and capacity… somehow, you haven’t lost any of your wit!

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    1. Thankyou!! yes, muddled is not all it’s cracked up to be. As far as wit, it’s good to laugh at ones self. It’s a bad sign when I’m taking myself more seriously than those around me.

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  3. Excellent post, Gary. The pictures are so good, all clear reminders of this great time of year, especially for you up there in the almost Great White North. Sorry you’re sick, brother. But praise God for healing and coming out of it. And one must appreciate a sick man comedian. Thanks for the laugh! (When you get really sick they suddenly appear scampering across electrical wires way up yonder.)

    I’m glad you’re getting better. I have been wondering about you. Thanks for your continued reading regardless of condition. I appreciate it. It won’t be long before you will be out in that canoe again, Gary. I appreciate all the great photos and the update. I think it may be safe to say that winter up there is finally over. Hope I’m not jinxing it. It will soon be time to come out of hibernation for good for a while.

    Deck. Sunshine. Natural Vitamin D. Keep soaking it up. Blessings

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    1. Thanks RJ
      I was actually too sick to really follow peoples posts for awhile. I would have to reread them a few times with rests…It’s quite amazing how the mind works until it doesn’t.
      We will hit 30 degrees for one last time then on to summer hopefully.
      I’m about a month behind on so many things. It makes one just do the important stuff if one can prioritize properly.
      When people disappear from our posts, there is usually something going on. That much I have learned over the years. I think this kind of thing helps us re-evaluate how best to proceed and what should be the main thing for us.

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  4. Gary, the muddle mindedness of your fever has produced a thought provoking post. I don’t dwell much in the news but read a bit here and there just to keep up to date. Your words, “I suspect another point would be that sin creates a “mind muddle” on the spiritual end of things” makes me think that their is a pandemic of sin induced “mind muddle” in the land today. The pictures from your outing show that spring has come at last to the north. Your photo of the Scarlet Tanager is truly impressive. We have a pair on our property but stay elusively in the treetops, so I must be satisfied with the sounds of their calls. Praying that the Lord will quiet you so that you will rest and allow His healing hand to do its complete work in your body (Psalm 63:6-7). Prayers also for your wife that the Lord will fill her afresh each day with strength as she cares for you and your daughter (Psalm 59:16).

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    1. Thankyou Beth. I agree there is a sin induced mind muddle in our land and across the world. It really is an odd thing for me to not be able to think as clearly and as deep and far as I am used to. All 3 of us were sick at the same time for awhile but my wife and daughter obeyed the rules of healing better than me. There goes Gary taking shortcuts that end up the long ways again. I’m on the right track…I think

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  5. I will add you to my prayer list. Hope you are better soon. Love the pictures, but especially the red bird – doesn’t look like a cardinal to me. So, I’m not sure what it is.

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  6. Aw, Gary, I’m sorry. I can feel for you, especially the frustration of having all that time to think (and pray) and not being able to do it very well. Maybe God wants us to meditate on the fact that it’s not us. He will carry us, even when we can’t pray, much less do anything spectacular. And I’m like you, I get restless and have on several occasions tried to jump back into things too soon. I hope you can rest, and think on the verse, “Be still and know that I am God.” And “He maketh me to lie down.” 😉

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    1. That’s good advice Annie.
      I do picture the Lord putting out his hand as if to say, slow down, be still. I think he sent extra sparrows just to remind me of his promises. I still get more than restless leg syndrome though. It’s a bit like “Don’t just do something, stand there”

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    1. Thanks Robert. Yes, window time is going to be on the agenda for awhile. It bothers me that my mind slips out of gear a lot though. Enjoying what God gives you is sometimes a learned art I think.

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  7. Gary, I’m praying for your health to be fully restored and your stamina renewed. Thanks for sharing so that we can lift your needs in prayer.

    Your wife’s witty remark to you, about the squirrel climbing the tree, caused me to laugh out loud. I needed a good belly laugh today––thanks.

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    1. Thanks Jo. I am quite sure the warm is here to stay, even though we will still see some almost feezing temps yet at night. I’m trying to do almost everything right to get back to normal. I think this one will take it’s time.

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  8. Really glad to hear that your health is returning, Gary. When you get sick, you don’t mess around! I read somewhere that God gave women labour pains so they could really appreciate what men go through with a bad cold. (OK, my apology to women, but I had to give it a shot!) Score: Gary zero, wife one, ref squirrel response! I think Annie’s advice about remaining still is sound. When moving forward, think baby steps! Continuing to hold you and yours up in prayer, Gary. Blessings!

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    1. Yep, Bruce, I’ll admit to being a wimp. My wife and daughter do much better with pain. I have learned my build-up of any energy does not exceed 30 minutes of actually doing something. My gas tank has a hole in it and I’m continuously running on empty. There is a spiritual application in there someplace.

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  9. It’s hard to be still and rest once we gain a little bit of strength in recovery. I know from experience taking too many steps forward too soon can set us back a few steps and head us back to the recliner where we should have stayed a little longer. But you sure found some beauty to share on your venture out. The red tanager is spectacular. May you rest in the Lord and may your healing be complete soon so you can get back out in nature. Take care, Gary.

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    1. You got it Nancy. I know I don’t get suddenly well, but only in my head. The red tanager was quite a sight gift for sure. Kind of rare to see them close enough to get a picture. I have to open a window or patio door to take a decent picture without glare. I had to fight the dog off from scooting through the patio door and scaring the bird away. Our little buddy thinks it’s a competition to scare off whatever, when I am taking a picture.
      Thankyou for your encouragement.

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    1. Thanks Mary. Ya, what do you say to a sick person but get well and praying for you. Thankfully I have a tri-pod and have the camera mounted on it. I actually have it on a 2 second delay so my hitting the button on the camera is still by the time it goes off. Otherwise my shots would look like I took them out the window of the car speeding down the road. Most of my shots were with a tripod.

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    1. Thanks Mandy
      I will need strength for a graduation soon and still hoping to get to BWCA early June.
      It’s a worthy goal anyway. Freezing for a couple nights more than 40’s at night…yea.
      Nice days though…50’s and 60’s soon 70’s (hold breath).

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  10. Sorry to hear you haven’t been feeling well! I will be praying for your total healing. Sometimes a muddled mind can help us refocus on what matters most. See things in a new way. Take every opportunity to rest…to be still and know what He is God.

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    1. Thanks Stephanie
      This has sure slowed me down. A perspective in slow motion is quite different. The being still is easy. Deep thoughts…not easy. Living in simplicity is definitely a learning experience for me.

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  11. “I can now take off the 30 foot retractable dog leash off my ankle without getting dizzy bending over.”
    You had me cracking up, Gary. I’m glad your sense of humor is still healthy. I pray that your body would also heal and prosper, by God’s grace. I believe He appoints our trials and our muddles. Even when His purposes are inscrutable they still have a purpose. May the purpose of yours be fulfilled soon and may you be returned to your vigor. In the mean time may your rest be blessed.

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    1. I think being sick really turns me into a diz-brain Craig. I have to laugh at myself. I sure hope to get back on my feet with some vigor. You are right though…God appoints and get alot of mileage in our bumbles and infirmities. you know about this way more than I. Life is truly a vapor that dissipates all too quickly.

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  12. I hope that you are feeling better! Your photos are amazing! Nature is such a healing balm for whatever ails us. After a bout of sickness our bodies need time to slowly recharge. Praying for you!

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    1. Thanks Linda. Yes, lots of recharge needed. The slow recharge is forced for sure. It competes and wins against my level of patience. You are right. Nature helps. Hope your summer is starting out well.

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      1. Sometimes, in those seemingly slow times, we ‘recover’ so much more than we think. It is as if we slow down enough to see everything more clearly. We understand that God will carry us through the ‘muddled places’, and we will be stronger on the other side when we get there. Perhaps, without the ‘muddled places’, we would be too busy to comprehend all that we need to learn in this life. We are endlessly busy with so many things. Still, in the silence sometimes, and in the slow places, things leap out at us…things we need to know, things that will help us further down the road. (Just thoughts, and that is all.)

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  13. Praying for you from this corner too, Gary. May you notice steady improvement day by day (especially now that you’ve learned a rhythm of rest is necessary)! We have circus squirrels in our backyard, capable of daring leaps and precarious perches. They amaze me! P.S. Love the scarlet tanager photo. I’d like to see one of those in the wild. No spectacular sightings here this spring, but last year we had a group of indigo buntings stop by to feed. Such a glorious blue!

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  14. Thanks Nancy. I am improving gradually. Pushing a little more into each day.
    Buntings are a wonder on their colors.
    We have tanagers and Orioles and some purple and yellow fincbes for color. Ocasional buntings…
    Very fun to hear and see.

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